maybe its cuz i'm pmsing

maybe its cuz i'm stressed about not getting into grad school

maybe its cuz i have too much time to think

maybe its cuz i'm too sensitive

maybe its cuz i feel like nothing is going my way

maybe its cuz i feel lonely...but shouldn't...

maybe its cuz i feel invisible

i dunno but in the end i feel crappy...blah

i am physically and emotionally exhausted

my body is failing me.

been home for 11 days...what a very crazy 11 days...

-dinner with family

-drinking

-throw up

-birthday

-drinking

-throw up 6 times

-get sick from alcohol/stomach flu don't eat for a day

-hang out with emily

-emily leaves for school

after that its a blur LOTS OF CHANGE....i guess its just something i have to deal with....good/bad? i guess we will have to wait and see...

can't wait to get back to irvine and live in my new house with my wonderful roommates...i miss everyone.  however i am not looking forward to school starting again...blah

home for couple weeks...need to go to appointments, see family/friends i havn't seen in a while and just relax for a bit... 

yea...thats it... 

damn i spend SOOOO much money when i'm feeling shitty....but geeze it makes me feel better...

doode my friends are sooooo freaking wonderful...when i'm down so my friends are there for me...i feel so lucky...i don't know what i would do without you guys...i miss you guys soooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!